in the meantime, i was having a terrible tummy ache. it's gastric plus some tummy upset. i can feel the gas boiling inside the more i got angrier. the more my heart aches, the more pain i felt inside me. i made half a cup of hot drink but that didn't help. i went to the living room with a tummy pain but what aches most is the heart. i took some painkillers.
arguments of late always rooted from my family issues. i'm really exhausted. others do not understand that i feel the sharpest pain whenever the issues are brought up. i did not post it on my pale face does not mean that i do not bother. the entire night i was outside the living hall, in pain. i cried myself to sleep, only to be awaken by the pain again. in the difficulties to sleep, i thought of the many events in life. i thought of the many decisions i made, always for the good of my closest persons.
i do not remember i slept a minute. the little one had a bad night too. he was having nightmares i guess, and cried several times in his sleep.
i woke up this morning in silent mode. i got myself prepared for work in silent mode. i changed the little one in silent mode. the entire journey to work was pure peace. i got down from the car without a word.
i did not expect an sms or a call of apology. not anymore. and it did not happen anyway.
my heart aches, and i know it contributed drastically to my deteriorating health.
it's not about who opens up first or who calls the other one first.
it's the war of hearts. yes, we are in a silent war...
3 comments:
Hi,
Hope both of you had cool down. Don't keep silent for too long. Ok?
eee. so surprised to get a comment. this blog got reader meh??
ahyo... u gave me this blog leh.. Remember?? haha..
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